The Mind Is The Thing

Pick Your Gadget – Daily Prompt
So a time machine, an invisibility hat and a door to anywhere walk into a bar.. I’m kidding.

I wouldn’t time travel I have no want to see the future and no need to change the pass. The hat of invisibility would be fun for a while. I could check out what my hubby does at work all day. Sneak into amusement parks and zoo’s but it’s definitely not something I would get much use out of.
Now the door to anywhere. I was talking to my besty and she honestly had some very positive things to use this for. Her blog on it is over here.
I was depressed and agitated and just being my normal bipolar self. I couldn’t think of any of these items being used in any way positive. Then I took a 2 mile walk. It helped burn some of my agitation. I read some IM’s from said BFF about positive days I have had over the last while even though I could only see the darker side of things.
Like a light bulb going off I realized what I would do. If said door existed then I would be able to interact with whatever is on the other side of the door. I would use the door to enter my mind and see what was going on there.
I also think since I could enter my mind I would be able to interact with the negative things in my mind. I’d destroy the depression and anxiety. I would boost the positivity and love. I would dust and clean it until it was pretty and practically whole. If I’m going through a door to anywhere that is exactly where I am heading no matter how scary it might be. The only way to conquer a negative is with a positive.

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To My Dear Husband

Last but Not Least

Thank you for supporting me through all my crazy. The anxiety, the bipolarity, the insecurities and rash behaviors associated with my borderline personality disorder. Thank you for staying home with me when I just couldn’t leave and then hopping up and going out when I felt I could. You’ve never complained and always stood by my side, showing me more love than I ever thought I deserved.¬† Thank you for keeping me alive.

Getting Ready – A Bipolars Guide To A Night Out

Normal Mood:
Shower – Want to Smell Great, Plus I’ll use this cute perfume.
Find outfit – look through closet and find something pretty easy.
Shoes – These are cute and can walk in them
Makeup – Not too much I hate the clean up afterwards.
Hair – I’ll wear it up, it’s easier and I am horrible at styling.
Husbands Compliment of me looking nice. – thank you!

Depressed Mood
Shower – Nah too much work, maybe tomorrow.
Find Outfit – I have no energy, I’ll just take this sundress that I threw on the floor a week ago.
Shoes – I wish I could just wear my slippers, but I guess I’ll change to sandals.
Makeup – Dun wanna
Hair – it looks fine, a little bedheady but that’s all the rage.
Husbands Compliment of me looking nice – ya whatever. Can I just go back to bed please?

Hypersexualized Mood
Shower – Invite hubby in for a quickie.
Find Outfit- Dance around the house naked, teasing hubby. Eventually pick out the sluttiest dress I have.
Shoes- 5 inch stilettos, perfect.
Makeup- Dark red lipstick and a smoky eye. Sultry.
Hair – Wow this curling iron looks like a dick. Ask hubby for another quickie.
Hubbies Compliment of me looking nice – Another quickie of course. What a great way to thank him. Why does he look pained?

Hypomanic Mood
Shower – Turn on the tunes and spend 30 extra minutes in the shower singing into the loofa.
Find Outfit- This one looks good, how about this one, this one, ooh I like this one. Maybe not.. This one? Hmm okay this one.
Shoes- Tries on 20 different Shoes, 1 foot at a time, running 2 hours late now. Show hubby them all and discuss 5 different topics with him while you are doing it.
Makeup – Damn my hand is shaking, guess I am going with the bright green. Do you know how come eyes are different colors? and that I’m part Irish?
Hair – Up? Down? Curls? Ugh I’ll just brush it out, my natural waves will do, right? Right?
Hubbies Compliment of me looking nice – Thanks, but did you mean the dress? Do the shoes look ok? Hey did you see the thing on the news about the stuff? Can I just stay home and paint, or make jewelry or write?

Bitchy Mood
Shower – Fuck that.
Find Outfit – I hate all these clothes, I hate everything in my closet.
Find Shoes – Throw a shoe at hubby for wondering what’s taking me so long
Makeup – No one will notice, screw it.
Hair – As I put a pony tail in I mumble and swear to myself about not wanting to go.
Hubbies Compliment of me looking nice – Fuck you. Start a fight about something stupid and end up not going.